| one huge mother of an essay--stolen from an unsuspecting journal |
[May. 13th, 2004|09:59 pm] |
[Jewelry worn daily]: watch, rope around my neck, and various Guatemalan/colombian/Indian bracelets.
[Pillows] 6 maybe I dunno
[Shoes]: chucks
[Favorite top]: that’s tough I’d say my signed aom shirt--though I don’t like to wear it much because I’m afraid the sharpie’s gradually wearing off
[Favorite bottoms]: probably either my linen skirt or pants OR my ordinary ol’ levis
[Cologne/Perfume]: ’fraid not, except bvlgari sometimes
[CD in stereo right now]: Seether
[Piercings]: absolutely none and that is evil
[Hair]: brown with random natural blondish reddish streaks
[What you are wearing now]: skirt and teotehuacán tshirt
[In my mouth]: my tongue
[Inmyhead]: monkeys dancing
[After this]: reading
[Talking to]: ho bag
[The last thing you ate?]: angel hair pasta w/ pesto and salat
[Some of your favorite movies]: y tu mama tambien, ferris bueller’s day off, monty python and the holy grail, etc
[Something that you are deathly afraid of]: Being Alone
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: yessir
[Do you belive in forgiveness]: yeah, the first time…
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: maybe a ferret or a pigeon or a duck or elephant. Ooh I want a tapir!
[What are 3 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: New York, mexico city, berlin
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: Guys
[In the last 24 hours, have you]
01. Cried: almost…we were watching the last samurai
02. Bought something: the doors movie
03. Gotten sick: not more than usual, but I think I’m allergic to mothballs
04. Sang: YES INDEED I HAVE. The HILLS are alive…
05. Eaten: yep just a few minutes ago actually and I am bursting at the seams
07. Felt stupid: ooh that’s kind of a 24-hr thing
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: no I think its understood. Plus a lot of people I know aren’t exactly the squishy types who’d appreciate that.
09. Met someone new: I don’t think so…
10. Moved on: to the other side? nope
11. Talked to an ex: well noah called me an hour ago if that counts, but I’d rather it didn’t because I’m not even acknowledging that I ever knew him.
12. Missed an ex: there really aren’t any to miss
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: no
4. Had a serious talk: slightly…clare and I were talking about kim jung il and hitler for a few minutes on the walk home from school
15. Missed someone: all the time
16. Hugged someone: why natch!!
17. Fought with your parent: no not at all actually, aside from trivial little quarrels that we have every day
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: I don’t think so
[Who]
01. Have you known the longest: clare, ramaa and kelley
02. Do you argue with the most with: probably my mom..but only over stupid little things
03. Do you always get along with: clare and usually sammie
04. Is the trustworthiest: probably clare
05. Makes you laugh the most: clare and shaz and spamwise
06. Has been there through all the hard times: ramaa clare and kelley
07. Has the coolest parents: I have to say it would be ramaa’s, but only by a nose b/c clare’s folks drive us to all ends of the dc ghetto at 1AM.
08. Have the coolest siblings: honestly I don’t know anyone’s siblings very well except for Kelley’s, and megan is nice but I wouldn’t call her “cool”
09. Is the most blunt: keila
10. Is the smartest: elissa, david, desinja=math smart, Sharon=people smart, clare=art smart. Basically you can’t just categorize people as plain smart.
[Personal]
01. Who is your role model: I don’t have one but I admire kurt cobain and johnny depp to no end
02. What are some of your pet peeves: people ignoring me, rap, avril lavigne, britney spears and her ilk, the list goes on and on
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: johnny depp, vince scheuermann, david (MI), and sean kind of but I only have no chance because of geographical reasons (he used to like me you know…or maybe you don’t but you do now)
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: of course
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after? Shyish guys who are weirdly skinny, shaggy hair, has some literary, musical, or artistic aspect to their character
06. Have you ever lied to your best friends: yeah about little things, but nothing that hasn’t been divulged or really needs to be known
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: yep
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: probably dumper, except we can see that will never work out for me very well…
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: yeah
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: well yeah back when sean was my best friend
12. Do you want to get married: Yes
13. Do you want kids: definitely, but in the distant future
14. Do you believe in psychics: I don’t think others can tell you your future, but I think some people can see into their OWN future sometimes. I guess that’s called intuition
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: I’d like to say yes but I really don’t know
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: my eyes
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: the poetry that I am sometimes capable of composing
18. Are you happy with you: not at all. There are very sparse and specific moments when I feel like I am someone special or that I’m the best person I could possibly be, but that feeling goes as quickly as it comes
19. Are you happy with your life: sometimes, but rarely
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: I wish I weren’t so terribly dull, or that I could fit into some age group. I find myself thinking about issues that no normal teenager would ever want to converse about, but at the same time I am so much less intellectual than the 20 year olds who that conversation might appeal to. I really don’t fit anywhere.
Have you...
1. Fallen for your best friend?: well not my current best friend(s) as they are girls. Very lovely girls I might add but I just don’t happen to swing that way.
3. Been rejected?: sigh yes, but kind of not, its hard to explain.
4. Been in love?: I thought so. Don’t know yet.
5. Used someone?: I guess I probably have. I’m no nun or anything.
6. Been used?: yeah, but it depends on the connotation
8. Done something you regret?: yeah but I get over it because there’s nothing I can do, and I try to dwell on the past as little as possible even though those efforts are usually futile.
Who was the last person..
9. You touched?: I don’t know clare maybe?
10. You talked to?: mom, or noah eww
12. You instant messaged?: keila
14. You had sex with?: johnny depp….oh wait I think that was a dream
15. You yelled at?: don’t remember, but probably mom
16. You laughed with?: clare
17. Who broke your heart?: a so and so who I “hate”
Do you..
19. Color your hair?: never have
20. Have tattoos?: I wish
21. Have piercings?: I wish
22. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? I wish
23. Own a webcam? Yeah but I don’t use it
24. Own a thong? Don’t think so, I might though hmm
25. Ever get off the damn computer? Well recently I haven’t been ON the damn computer so I guess that would be a yes.
27. Habla espanol? Claro que si, puñuelo
28. Quack? coooo
Have you / do you / are you...
29. Stolen anything? I think we know the answer to that question
30. Smoke? me?
32. Obsessive? Yeah about some things
33. Compulsive? “
34. Obsessive compulsive? “
35. Panic? yep
36. Anxiety? Not anything diagnosed
37. Depressed? Not anything diagnosed
38. Suicidal? Not right now
39. Obsessed with hate? It kind of fascinates me
40. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? muahaha
*Questions*
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? Cape cod with my little cousin alex, except there are horse flies there this time of year so scratch that, I’d like to be on a beach in mexico or sc with my aunt and uncle
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? Fingers and thumb are pretty flexible, and I used to be able to do the human pretzel thing but I haven’t attempted it in a while.
43. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? Eyes and lips
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: of course if she represented the right issues
45. Would you marry for money?: no
46. Have you had braces?: yessir
47. Do you pluck your eyebrows? Sometimes
48. Do you like hairy backs? Ew ew heathens
50. Could you live without a computer?: I think but I would lose touch with the overseasers which I couldn’t do, so under other circumstances yes I could but not right now.
51. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc: Yea
52. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 74, but a lot of people have many many sns so I don’t really know 74 people on aim
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be?: probably I’d like to live with the native Americans before the white man came, or the 70s in a hippie community
54. Do you wear white socks?: Yea
55. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: I take them off as soon as I get inside
56. Your favorite fruit?: cherries, watermelon, and strawberry sometimes
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: wheat, against my will
58. What is your favorite place to visit?: cape cod, mexico, guatemala
59. What is the last movie you saw?: y tu mama tambien for the seven hundredth time
61. Are you photogenic?: on rare occasions, yes. I look fine from far far away
62. Do you dream in color or black and white?: both
63. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: Nope
64. Is it chipped or fresh?: N/A
65. Do you have any dimples? Yes barely
66. Do you remember being born?: thank heavens no
67. Why do you take surveys?: I'm bored
68. Do you drink alcohol? From time to time
69. Did you like or do you like high school?: well last year was better than deal, but this year just sucks beyond belief. I think I liked elementary school better, I was an oblivious dork back then.
70. What is the best accent? Australian!! Or French. Spanish sounds really pretty when being spoken by natives, but when they speak English there isn’t that kind of musical flow to it anymore.
71. Who do you want to kiss? Johnny depp
72. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Sunsets--I’m never up to see sunrises
73. Do you want to live to be 100?: que sera sera
74. Is a flat stomach important to you?: yeah kind of…beer-bellies are a major turn off, but if someone is round all the way its fine.
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? yeah
76. Are you loyal?: Yes
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: well I don’t go beating people up, but there are some people I will never agree with. I tolerate religious beliefs but many political beliefs I challenge (eg Iraq)
78. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: depends on the movie and whether its light or dark outside. But generally I like the lights off.
79. Do you like your nose?: its ok I guess, I mean I don’t intend on swapping with anyone
80. Do you think you can draw well?: not especially
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real? No idea. I don’t think I ever really believed in santa after age 4 but I was absolutely terrified of him at the malls and would give him very wide berth when with my parents (as in we wouldn‘t even go on the same floor as santa).
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: maybe 5-10. I rarely wear them except the sandals
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety? Same shoes
84. Do you write poetry?: yep
85. Snore?: no
86. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: Sides
87. Cats/Dogs?: doggies
88. Do you lick stamps?: yeah but I haven’t used them in forever
89. Do you use an electric can opener?: my food doesn’t come from CANS
90. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: no but I wish I could
here we go...
Like your name?: yes, its just a royal pain when people misspell it, which is all the time
Were you named after anyone?: nope
Do you wish on stars?: occasionally. I wish on eyelashes and chips more often though. I don’t see too many bright stars from this pollution infested cement jungle here.
Which finger is your favorite?: middle…its so useful
When did you last cry?: kind of today (last samurai, when they were all bowing)
Do you like your handwriting?: egads no!
Who do you admire: too many to list, but kurt cobain, Gandhi, jim morrisson, mom, and aunt joanne are right up there
What is your favorite animal?: practically every animal is my favorite. I love tapirs, elephants dogs and guinea pliggs extra specially though.
If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?: I don’t know. I’m really introverted so I guess probably not
Are you a daredevil?: it depends
Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: yeah but only because I was desperate and needed to help someone
Have you ever stolen anything? I answered this already
Do looks matter? Not really but I could never fall in love with someone who looked like my dad or grandpa.
Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: I’m sure, but I usually catch myself as I do it
Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: nope just a leprechaun
Are you trendy?: I don’t pay attention to trends: if its comfy and doesn’t look ridiculous and I can afford it I’ll wear it, as long as 50 other people don’t have the same thing. The last I want is to look like Im wearing some sort of uniform when I pay money at a store.
How do you release anger?: usually talk myself down, talk to the person who pissed me off, or I write in my dead journal or poetry. Sometimes I don’t release it I just try to forget it instead by preoccupying myself.
Do you trust others easily?: not at all
What was your favorite toy as a child?: I didn’t really have toys per sey but I had books and stuffed animals that I didn’t play with, but they were like a security blanket for me.
Do you like sappy love songs?: if the music is good
Have you ever been on radio or television?: both
Do you have a journal?: livejournal, deadjournal, art journal, many regular journals and a few poem books
Do you use sarcasm a lot? Me? pshaw
Have you ever been in another country? A few
What is your nickname?: stefatnie, pigeon, paloma, palomita, stuffed chicken, steff, steffrey, shteffi, bern, schatzie, moisling and I think that’s it.
Would you bungee jump?: yea
Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?: Never
what are you worried about right now?: all the work ive been avoiding the past two weeks
Do you ever wear overalls?: I have worn them a few times in my life, but not for many years
Do you think you are strong?: people say I am, but I am really weak too, like I have trouble opening the stairwell doors on off days. |
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